Trapped in inaction

Now that I’ve got everything ready to start posting my thoughts publicly even though I don’t have an audience here, I feel weird. It’s like the first time I was going to post something on metroflog.

I feel like I’m in a space where I can be, but I don’t feel the need to do it. I don’t know if that’s good. I just feel like writing what I want to write isn’t worth the effort or the pain itself. I feel trapped in this kind of spiral that leaves me researching and implementing things that you can’t see.

For example, this Secret Santa: my friend has problems with a ERR_CERT_VERIFIER_CHANGED, but it seems like it’s just a browser problem. Still, why is that problem?

In general, I feel compelled to do nothing. Maybe I should have therapy before I go through all this year-end trembling of things to do. Things that, by the way, matter little or nothing to me. I just want to see the people around me eat, not be alone, if that’s what they prefer. That’s what I want for Christmas.